Am i not good enough ?
As a friend ? I'm just curious ,
One day .. will i actually feel that ?
That I am worth the trouble I get into for those I love ..
Or if I give alot more thought for others than they will ever possibly give?
I know if i become a little heartless , is not like im going to lose anything

Especially with this cold and fever , im nauseous 24/7 , its really steamy and hot , the depression does not fail to get in the way , not to mention a bedroom (which me and my sister share) being intruded with unwanted people coming in and out every 50 seconds .. so fucking noisy !! and no privacy at all !!! i wanna run awaay = o = wanna escape to my dreams , wanna sleep and wake up with NO one but the lively sound of the sun and the noisy street .

AT SCHOOL , i want to hit my desk partner , she always makes me feel like pulling her hair from the roots and tackling her down to the floor , SO PESSIMISTIC , HOPE BREAKING AND FUCKING RUDE . the bad news is this is isnt new news , and she has a very small kind part (I THINK!?) WITH THAT FUCKING RUDE STARE AND DISRESPECT . AAH !! Ur not worth my company at all for damn sure .. _{dung does not make me look forward to school ,bitch .}I should keep informing her I'm not easy more than keep shouting it out in this dump ,
its not like theres any good coming from this but im only still hanging with u cuz I know how it'd feel to stay alone and neglected. gutta let her know that she has to work it up or she's gunna lose it .


Im glad my finals' next months ! So LONG immature planet !!
and hello second world :] second world , I know u have immaturity too but I know ur a better place than where I am now . I have HOPES . DONT LET ME DOWN

please share some personal experience (or helpful advice) i cant find someone here ..



(I know i've been away alot , I've been too busy and this my last school year , if I didnt reply on something important please let me know! )